I spent almost two years losing 100lbs and now I've gained 35lbs back
I am asking myself why? Why after all the hard work have I let myself gain weight back? I say "let myself" because I do realize it is all my doing. It is all a result of not monitoring myself, being lazy (yes lazy!) not preparing meals taking for granted that the processed food and overeating would catch up to me.
Losing weight is such a mental game.
The entire time I was losing I would tell myself not to give up, and now three and a half years later, I'm still telling myself not to give up. Sometimes it seems like a complex idea, all the pushing, and sacrifice to reach a goal, but really it's simple. KEEP GOING. Keep doing the things that made you successful at losing. But sometimes you get tired...you want to get that old feeling back. You know the one where you don't think about what you eating, you just unconsciously enjoy. Sadly, that old feeling has consequences. Next thing you know you can't fit the pants your wore a month ago and you don't like how you look in the mirror. You notice that double chin starting and the panic sets in.
But then you reason, I did this before, I can do it again.
Tomorrow we get it together!
I'm here to tell you....getting it together takes a lot longer than you think.
The thing about weight re-gain is that if you don't keep trying that old mindset that you had before returns, slowly pushing your new habits into the background until everything you did to lose weight becomes what you used to do. You scold yourself and feel guilty because you know if you just kept going, you wouldn't be here. Now what?
Now we start over. I know that plunging into it, being drastic doesn't work. I know that restrictive eating doesn't do anything but make you hungrier. So the best thing I can do is take it slow, concentrating on one thing at a time. Slowly work into those good habits.
Every day is a try.
If I try every day, eventually the good habits will become my life again.
