They say a picture is worth a thousand words. So tell me, which ones came to mind when you
saw this picture?
Did you think, OMG! (That’s actually three words) or maybe
like me you thought just one, "WOW"!
These are the pants I used to wear at almost 340 lbs. They
are a Lane Bryant (7) or what I believe is single digit used to mask a real
size 30. (Sizes 14 to 28 riiiiight!!)
I debated whether I should post this pic or not. Losing weight is so personal; putting
yourself out on the World Wide Web takes courage. Knowing what you've accomplished is out there
for the entire world to see makes you vulnerable. Not just to opinions of others but to
yourself.
Anyone who wants to lose weight can relate to my feelings of
inadequacy. Seriously, I don't think I'm anyone great. I still have about 70 lbs.
to go before I reach my numeric goal and as you can see I'm still fat. Posting a picture of me to let the world know
where I was, tells people exactly where I am. Currently, I am 230 lbs. with plushy
arms and legs, wide hips and a surplus of thighs that still hang on even after
100 lbs. loss. Good days, bad days, not giving up on me and fear of a regain and or
failure is still very real, but the courage to continue is getting better.
It's a strange feeling. I know those pants are mine. I know I used to wear them. But, for some
reason I can't believe that is where I was.
I have to admit I feel a little sorry for myself. It took me a long time to really
"see" the real me. Now when I look
back I understand why the people around me were worried. But mostly I understand
why even on my worst day, when the scale refuses to move... I should be
proud. Losing weight can be very
difficult. The process physically and
mentally is a challenge. But the reality is I have and I still am meeting that
challenge.
Yes it will be a journey.
Actually, it's more like a roller coaster ride. There are ups and downs and twist and turns,
and sometimes you will need a GPS to get you on back on track, but it’s a ride
worth taking. The hardest part is making
up your mind to get on.
To anyone who reads this, I sincerely hope you get on the
ride, there will be times the handle bar will dig into your hip, you'll close your eyes and be frightened beyond belief, you'll scream and cry (mostly at your scale) and maybe you just wanna hurl. But in the end, it’s the best ride you'll every take.
